Loneliness

Pain and loneliness

I want to be remembered the girl who always smiled, the one who could brighten up my day, even if she couldn't brighten her own.

You look at me and think, 'he's so happy' but there's so much behind this little smile that you will never know.

I just wish I could roll back the clocks to when things were the same... then we were all just a bunch of crazy teenagers looking for a wild time. But now, thing aren't the same. Each of us have gone our different ways. We change, people change, things just change, and we aren't those crazy teenagers looking for a wild time anymore. We're teenagers looking for a person to love and a person to hug when we're in need.

Alone and Agony

Can you help me?
I've lost my way
On the corner of "Alone" and "Agony".
The streets all look the same;
An outcome for the worse.
Each promises a sort of pain.

Can you see down one road?
I'm afraid I'm blinded by my fear;
Fear of having to feel these emotions
I thought I had put far away.
But everything that is hid away
Eventually resurfaces.

Excuse me, sir.
Can you help me by chance?
I've lost my way
On the corner of "Alone" and "Agony".

I choose to walk down the path of loneliness,
For it holds both itself and Agony,
Whereas the other one holds only the pain and nothing else.

I am the desert
And you are my mirage
My eyes are dry
Rain becomes my tears
My heat is sultry
Reaching out my hands to touch you
I only grab air
Stale air
Where you should be
You dissipate
I create you in my mind
You have dark hair with gray at the temples
Your eyes look golden in the sunlight
They are brown
And trustworthy
If only you could be my reality
I wish that I could wish you into existence
But I am only a lonely desert

The Lonely Bird

You plucked me from among your backyard birds
I was the only blue one
You turned my chirps into words
You showed me the sun
I had so much to say
And you coaxed it from me
You had a soft way
That you made me see
My own beauty
I had a family but I was still alone
I was one among a crowd
It was you who had shown
Me that I too could be loud
That it was okay
And I could be me
That I had a say
In where I chose to fly
My wings spread
I could go high
And my legs no longer felt like lead